To have believed so strongly, to have been so naïve. I really let myself down. And I feel myself almost doing it again? Why do I crave attention? Why do I crave affection? I feel so alone all the time and yet I can’t see myself fitting in out there.

I feel like I want to sleep. I want to sleep and leave this world. Perhaps when I wake up, it will be different. Perhaps when my eyes will open, there won’t be the people there are today. The world operates on such a simplistic scale, and it’s really quite disturbing to me. All the idiots of this planet outweigh those of us that actually get what the fuck is going on. What’s that saying about the future? The smarter population realizes the risks in giving childbirth, and those that are stupid just fuck for whatever.

Yet how many smart people do you hear that have let their child die due to lack of supervision, or leaving their child in their hot car while they got their nails done. Is it the curse of the idiots to kill themselves off? Or is it the curse that the intelligent ones never have the time to raise children. The world has progressively gone to shit. Think of how the Egyptians were, how far advanced they were. But eventually…over the years, all the intelligent ones have passed, and only their idiot brothers and sisters remain.

Perhaps if we all went to sleep…and let them be the product of their own destruction, we could wake up to a new world. Or is this really what the world does to us? Is this not the mass annihilations of the different groups in the world? Only run by those that don’t know how to do the job right.

I’m afraid.